At 6 am every morning is when we get up to get matt ready for school and aslo for Herb to get ready for gym. Quite early but that's how goes. Being responsible is to learn at young age and no matter how early it is, matt gets up to get ready for school.
And yesterday, Wednesday, jan 16 that early morning, I did what i always do, get to kitchen and look at my phone to see if any emails from neneng. I got a miss call from Din-din at 5:30 am and left me message. I hurriedly checked my voicemail and found out she has read on Facebook that Jenelyn had posted on her page that you have passed away.
I called her right back and confirmed, you have passed away. She told me that she will call me on her lunch break to get some news and she did. She's very comforting kid and I'm so proud of her.
After I made coffee, Herb hugged me tight and felt the love and compassion from him. I cried on his shirt and he cried on my shoulder. It has reminded him about his mom. And he uttered, "I'm sorry" and I cried even more. After a bit, I tried to called Neneng many times and finally I was able to get her on the phone.
She's confirmed that you've succumed to life. She's happy that she's with you that last moment with our sister Manay and your son Jun-Jun. I am sorry but I think you are in a better place now and for sure way better than us here right now.
I knew it would be our last time all together as living siblings when I saw you in November. God knows how much I want to help out in my heart in my actions. I hope you are not mad at me. At least to know that you were able to lived in my house until the end made me not so guilty.
The few days I had with you at Neneng's house were the most remembered. I bragged about how good I am in fixing little things around the house to you and one thing that morning was putting a door lock on Inay's room. You really had a good laugh at my performance. You came over where i had put the lock on and you felt it and then you said "beng the person that will want to get in can still unscrew the lock you put on..hahaha.. I laughed with you of my work. So you specifically walked me through it and you were so proud of me that I was able to do it..I will never forget that.
Other thing that I hope Boyax remember for the rest of his life is that when you taught him and his son how to conncet lights and that. It was something that I will remember all the time. Even though you couldn't see but you use you hands to feel tools and what you were trying to do to show us and boyax how to do things and for that I am so proud to be able to have in my heart and mind.
It's Thursday night there in neneng's house. I was on the phone with her for hours. She's glad to have someone to talk to and somewhat gave her company. I heard few taxi drivers came by and hang around for the whole night with you. Inay is happy to see the 3 tables were full of people and friends played cards amongst themselves to pass time.
I am sorry and hope you are having a great time with Tatay, Berto, and many others who joined The Almighty God.
Peace..
PS. I thank God for Irene. Without her sending me over there,(to fetch her mother) I would not have that opportunity to be united with all. It's a shame in my part I didn't stick around until the papers get straightened out and I am very ashamed of that.
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