feelings to share

Not sure if this where I need to rant myself to the whole world. But I need to and will so here goes.

Today is Monday but it's already Tuesday evening in the Philippines. So hurtful to say but my brother is mad and mad to hell. He wants the contraption in his neck to be removed. Though this was told to me by my sister which I will be talking to via chat this afternoon on facebook.

His daughter Jenelyn took him to the specialist on Dec. 3rd for his kidney problem. Jenelyn took him to doctor so she won't feel guilty for not doing anything to help her father.

We know from 2 doctors already that he has kidney failure and that if he goes to the hospital they will start the dialysis process. According to our big sister whom I spoke to on Dec 5, that she discussed this findings with his daughter, Jenelyn whom came to see him because we urgently and pushed her to come.

Nonetheless, she showed up. But she's given her father FALSE hope and I really don't know. This is all my thoughts getting out of my head.

It's not that we don't want anyone to live, but who is going to shoulder the MONEY and the care taking part. Money is on me and the hard work will be on my sister, Neneng.

I told my sisters, I can not afford to shoulder all this expenses. So therefore, I want to be out of the list. I have no free money to gather. My husband is the soul provider and he can't help more than what his given already.

So, I will find out this afternoon how much bills Jenelyn left for us.

He needs , my brother, to go back to the doctor to get the dialysis started and if he has standing bills he can't get back in there unless he has the money.

If his daughter left him that way and is not sending money, I will be screaming fiercely on facebook. I will be on her face!!

I am so upset.

bye for now. it's 8:40 am ..