You are embarrassment.

In their highs and lows, I have never questioned your children, but you had the need to question mine.  You made my house to house them when you have your own and didn't  even bother asking me if it's okay, again I didn't question you! Cleaning the septic tank is not cheap and both of your kids plus your grand kid lived there for 2 years and still do and I did not ask you for rent.

It must have hurts your ego so bad knowing I am better than you! I don't blame you to be jealous.

I have taken my siblings to heart to seriously help them out to better themselves.  You have no idea how it feels like to be in a strange country and solely trusted the strange person that took your hand in marriage that promised to love you, trust you, treat you just the way he wants to be treated and to find out from people in town that he bragged about calling the immigration to find out how can he return you back to where he pulled you out from just because things didn't work out his way. You have no idea how it feels like to be so alone in strange country with your precious child not knowing where you stand. You have no idea how it feels like to survive with no identity in strange country and try to make one and no family to run for help.

Our beloved mother, I'm simply trying my best to give her shelter, food and what she needs in life so she can have a descent living when no one is willing  and yet even to this very moment I don't get the love and support she gives to you.

You have demoralized me in so many ways as your maid but to think that you are my big sister that supposedly a role model for what our mother preached all the time, I choose  to looked the other way and pretend I am a rock. Some things just won't go away from my heart, like you calling me a "puta  kaw" just because things didn't turn out your way. But I helped you out anyway.

I have been through hell and back and to hear our mother telling me not to come home just hide somewhere when I was going through divorce, I gave her food, shelter, pay her hospital bills, and do pretty much all the obligation to her kids, but I let her come and see America in return anyway.

I have sacrificed  for so many years and not question you for when should YOU return my retirement money I took out 20 years ago, just so you can be a Principal. I worked for you as your maid when you had Leah, for exchange me going to college at night. You had no idea how it feels like being belittled by your big sister in front of public, yet I continue to care  for you.

 It disturbed me tremendously that you had the need to question my daughter whom I could have given MY MONEY to, not that she would want to because she has herself worth, when you were thankful and even wrote some gratitude note on your thesis book. She's a hard working kid and very proud to make her own living since she's 18 yrs old.  I am very proud of her for not asking any help from me or anyone, because she has herself worth.  I have not heard her complain how difficult to be out there on her own, but she managed to make herself proud and I'm very proud of that. To see my kid shown great self worth is priceless. I bet you can't say that to me about your kids.

I am tired of being bully by you. I have been so quite and mind my own business.  Because you heard that MY family is coming not to attend our mother's birthday but to attend Joana's graduation made your jealous blood boiled that you had to tell Geraldine you wish your children can come to United States just like Irene, so they can better themselves, and that made me want to work even harder so Joana can get here sooner.

I'm tired of being used by you. Never will I consider thinking hiding in bedroom and ate food quietly so people in the house won't hear me with my kids eating. And those people that were in the house are my siblings and only mother. You didn't have to think twice of doing just that. You must have no shame for giving your left overs to neneng, and said, " oh look, that's all that was left". She's not dumb but she's ashamed of your doing. You are pathetic!

Except you, we were trained by our parents to:

• Clean your slippers so it's ready for you when you come home from school.
• Cook and serve you with hot food.
• Give you the best part of chicken when serving food, meanwhile as a cook in the family, I'd be so glad if I even get a feet or wing.
• We had to fetch buckets of water to flush the outdoor toilet, so you don't have to.

These are only few out of many things I remember of how you were treated so nicely than me, but I  managed to take my saving out to help you in getting show money so you can attend a conference in other country, again from that 100,000.00 pesos, I never seen a dime back! 

I guess, I must remind myself that you treat people differently than yourself. I remember someone lived with us so she can go to school in exchange for helping around the house and what stuck in my head is that, you treated that person as a maid and that she's not allowed to eat with you at the table. I made sure I ate with her, do chores with her so she can feel part of the family, not maid.

I heard from the great vine  that it hurts you're feelings so badly when you read  how articulately Geraldine wrote you of something you were asking for! You never asked her how she's doing since we left Philippines. You didn't show concern of her being. Instead you attacked her.  You are pathetic!. You even asked her to bring you gifts! For whatever reason you think that she should bring you any of such, blown my mind.